"Simon, son of John, do you love me?"
"Simon, son of John, do you love me?"
"Simon, son of John, do you love me?" (John 21:15 ff).
If we imagine the final discourses in John’s Gospel as executive management training for the Apostles, today’s story of Peter and Jesus on the beach by the Sea of Tiberias is graduation.
It would be difficult to find a more poignant moment between friends than this scene. Peter, chosen to lead the other disciples by example, fails profoundly in his time of testing, denying three times that he knew Jesus, who was being led to his death, alone betrayed and abandoned. Peter’s bitter tears became the baptism that alone could have prepared him to understand the Gospel of Mercy he was to model and preach.
His triple denial required a triple response to the cauterizing question from Jesus: “Do you love me?” Each time the question probed deeper into the wound Peter had inflicted on himself that terrible night around a charcoal fire in the court of the high priest. Each time he answered “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you,” the precious balm of truth found and healed the denial and the fear that had driven him to protect himself that night from the fate Jesus was embracing as the final sign of his love for a world that was rejecting him.
Who could have imagined that this baptism of failure would be necessary for all preachers of the Gospel of mercy? Have we glimpsed in Pope Francis' determination to direct the church toward the poor and outcasts the wound of his own failure to stand with two brother priests during the dirty war in Argentina? Who knows mercy better than one who has needed it himself? How blessed the church will be to have leaders who have been baptized in their own tears of failure, grounded in mercy and humility and unable, ever again, to lord it over others?
For all of us, graduation hangs not on our credentials or importance but on our heartfelt answer to a single question: “Do you love me?” If we can say "yes," then mission follows immediately. “Feed my lambs. Protect and nourish the flock. Tell the world about the unconditional love that was lavished on you while you were still a sinner.” This is the Gospel the world longs to hear.



